Tied Up

The only directions I received was where to be, what time and he said....
Wear your hair in a pony tail, and when you walk through the door you had better have a dildo in your pussy.

I showed up and parked behind the motel so my car would be out of sight.  It was a work day for me so I carefully tied my hair back and pulled my dildo out of my bag, pulled my skirt up and slid it up inside me.  My pussy was already wet just knowing what was to come.

I grabbed my things, locked my car door and walked around the corner.  It was difficult to walk with the dildo inside me so I was careful to clench my muscles tight.  I had texted him to open the door and as I neared the room I could see that room 9's door was already open.  As I was about to walk in I caught a quick glimpse of him standing in the room.

He was dressed casual in a pair of sweats and a t-shirt.  I walked into the door and he greeted me with a devilish grin.  He closed the door behind me and said well so far your 1 for 2.  Referring to my hair.  He grabbed me and pushed me back up against the wall and started to kiss me.  He kissed me hard.  We hadn't seen each other in quite a long time.  He immediately reached down between my legs and immediately could feel the dildo shoved deep inside my pussy.  He said, "damn your such a good girl, I love that about you"!  I told him I aim to please... he replied, oh your going to.

I started to look around the room and asked him nicely if he would mind removing the bedspread from the bed.  As he did this I quickly took my jewelry off and slipped off my shoes.  He came back around and started to kiss me again.  It was then that I realized that he was holding something in his hands.  He turned me around to face the wall and began to undress me.  He pulled my shirt off leaving my bra, and then unzipped my skirt and slid it off.  He left my thong on for the time being.  He told me to relax and ran his hands up and down my arms and then pulled them behind my back.  It was then that I realized that it was rope he was holding as he began to bind my wrists together.

After he had tied me in a way that I would surely not be moving my hands anywhere he turned me back around and kissed me again.  He said this morning I'm going to have my way with you.  You will give me control of your body, do what I say, and you will surely be rewarded.  He continued to kiss me as he would reach down between my legs and turned the vibration on in the dildo and slowly moved it in and out of me.  He then asked me to get down on my knees.  He pulled down his pants and his rock hard cock sprang out in front of my face.  Suck it he said.  I began to lick up each side of it and take his balls in my mouth and suck them very gently.  I continued to lick his cock and he told me to look at him.  I looked up at him and he grabbed his cock and ran it around my lips and slapped my face with it a few times before he told me to open my mouth and he slammed all of it deep into my throat.  He grabbed hold of the back of my ponytail and began to fuck my mouth.  He would push it in until it reached the back of my throat and I would gag and he would hold it there and then release me to catch my breath.  He continued to do this over and over.  He said tell me how much you love to suck this cock.  I told him, I love to suck your cock baby!  He said look at me when you tell me!  So I would look up at him and tell him how much I love to suck his cock.

He then grabbed me under my arms and pulled me up.  He kissed me hard again and reached down and stroked the dildo in and out of me a few more times.

He then pushed me down onto the bed. Without the use of my hands I just laid belly down on the bed. He reached around my waist and helped pull me up on my knees and give him perfect access to my entire backside.  He took his hands and just started to move them over my bottom and then slowly work the dildo in and out of my pussy.  It felt so good, and then I felt it, the hard smack of his hand over my right cheek, and then again on the left.  It stung but it excited me!  He continued to repeat this only adding to it by then taking the dildo out and in between smacks he would lick my pussy while stoking his fingers in and out of me.  I was so turned on and so wet and every time I would feel my orgasm start to rise up inside of me he would stop and say "no don't you cum yet, it's not time for you to cum yet"!

He was going to make me beg for this orgasm but I knew it would be worth it.  He continued to spank me and I could feel my ass getting hot and starting to burn and I could feel my juices starting to drip down my legs.  I was ready to explode!  He stopped long enough to come around and drag me up to him and tell me to suck him.  He grabbed a hold my pony tail and guided and directed me up and down his cock.  Again taking all of him and holding me there until he heard the little gag.  I knew he wouldn't be able to keep that up long without cumming and he wasn't ready to cum yet!  He looked down at me with his cock deep in my mouth and asked me if I wanted him to fuck my pussy, ass, or if I wanted him to lick it.  He pulled out of my mouth and I said I want to cum on his face!

He turned me around laying on my back and placed my dildo back in my pussy and played with me with his fingers before he placed his mouth on my pussy and began to suck and lick me like I have never felt before! With no hands to hold his head all I could do was move my hips and push down and grind on his mouth.  It only took about a minute before I felt it.... my orgasm started deep in my stomach, slowly building inside me. I begged him not to stop!  I could feel my breathing and with every breath it intensified inside me until finally I released it.  It came over me in rushes over and over and I could feel myself spilling all over him.  He never stopped, he took me all the way to the end and let me slowly come down and then he pulled the dildo out and took a breath.  He came up over me and began to kiss me and let me taste my sweet cum all over his face.
His cock was so hard pressed up against me as we kissed, so I reached down and put him inside me.  He slowly began to move in and out of me.  Long hard stokes, but this would not be his choice for coming today!

He pulled out of me and moved up with his knees on each side of my head and I opened my mouth and began to suck him.  He loved how well he could fuck my mouth from that position!  But this would not be his choice for coming today either!  He looked down at me and said "are you ready to give me your ass"?  I nodded yes!

He turned me back around and pulled me back up on my knees.  He first licked me up and down and slowly moved his fingers in and out of my ass.  He said "you are going to take my cock good today".  He placed the head at the entrance and poured lube all over us.  He grabbed hold of my hips and began to work his cock deep inside my ass.  He then placed my dildo back inside my pussy and then started to slap each of my butt cheeks again while he thrust hard inside me.  He said I want you to cum again, cum for me while I fuck your ass.  As soon as he said it I could feel myself ready to cum.  I told him don't stop, he grabbed my pony tail again and then reached his hand down around me and rubbed my clit and I instantly exploded again and as I told him how amazing it felt and I could feel him start to pour out inside me.  I could feel his cock pulsing deep inside me and he cried out!  When we both were finished he collapsed on top of me.  He kissed the back of my neck and slowly pulled out of me.

After we caught out breath he asked if I was ready for him to untie me?  I said yes, and he leaned down and started to kiss me.  As he kissed me he untied my hands!  I reached up and touched his face and ran my hands over his hair.  He stopped kissing and looked at me and told me I was amazing!  As was he!

Time had gone by quickly so he disappeared in the bathroom and came out and we sat on the bed and chatted for a bit but we both had many things to do for the day so we cleaned up, shared a goodbye kiss and went on our ways!

It was a great way to spend a morning!

Although my bottom was sore sitting in the car the whole rest of the day!! ;)

Catching Up

It appears that I now have about 5 different posts that I have started but have not had the time to finish.  I get thoughts and start to put them into words and often it's on my blogger app on my phone but it's hard to write on my phone so I end up saving them thinking I will get back to them and obviously we can see that doesn't happen so I thought today I'm going to summarize them into one post or else it will drive me crazy!
In no particular order....

My son's surgery was over  two weeks ago.  He is 6.  It went great!  Without getting into great detail let's just say it was full open heart surgery (a valve replacement), it was his second, and he did amazing.  It was a very stressful week in the hospital but all in all there were no complications and we made it home in less than a week.  I was home with him all last week as well.  I had to return to work this week and that has been rather stressful since I work for the devil herself but he is still home healing for a few more weeks but nonetheless is doing great!  Thanks for all of the kind words and well wishes!!

I have not had any good action in weeks!  I often joke with a girlfriend of mine about how when we don't get enough sex we need our pussy pissy buttons reset.  Well mine needs a complete overhaul.
Things had been going great with all of my male friends lately and then the week before surgery my selfish stressed out body decided to have an outbreak.  It was my first one in a very long time!  I had made tentative plans with both L and C for that week.  I let C know that it was not looking like it would be worth it for him to come all the way to me and get a room just for some making out and a blow job.  He did consider but we decided to just hold off.  L of course was working right in my neighborhood so on Wednesday I picked him up at lunchtime at the job site and we had intended to get a room for a few hours nearby but again I didn't much see the point in getting a room so we decided to have lunch and then we found a nice secluded place to park and I gave him a blow job.  Interesting enough he pulled out his camera and took a few pictures and a video- this seems to be popular lately!  Since it was a short video he was able to text it to me and for the first time ever I got to watch myself on video.  It was interesting and actually pretty damn HOT!  I was like.. yea that's right, you suck that cock good girl! LOL
On Friday morning I had to take my little guy for a short dr. appt before work.  After I dropped him at school I ran home to get some work done before I had to go into the office to have a big meeting with my boss and I get a text message from J.  I have not been talking with J a whole lot lately.  He texts me here and there always hoping for one of our lovely lunch time meetings but I have been so busy with work and preoccupied with others that we have not been together in months.  Well apparently I had forgotten that I mentioned that Friday at lunch might be a possibility. Well he didn't forget.  So I decided to just be honest and tell him I was just getting over a little OB and it probably wasn't a great idea unless he wanted to slap my face with his cock and let me make him cum in my mouth!  He was actually very sweet and said we should just wait cause he doesn't want to be selfish and wants to make me cum terribly.  I told him it would easily be two weeks or more and I had the time and since he was so sweet it immediately made me horny so we agreed to meet in one of our usual spots.
I got there first.  It's a restaurant parking lot but there is an area in the back that is somewhat private but J and I have never been used to much privacy and sometimes I think we both enjoy pushing some limits.
When he showed up he was all smiles!  I walked around to his side of the car and he grabbed me and pushed up against the car and started kissing me!  He kisses hard and with so much want in him.  He is starting to really enjoy the forceful side of things.  He grabbed and touched me everywhere.  Pulled my dress down so he could take my nipples in his mouth.  Told me how badly he wanted to bend me over right there. Since that was not in the cards for the afternoon I started undoing his pants while we were kissing.  I pulled his already very hard cock out and squatted down right there and took him into my mouth.  I sucked him a few times and then looked up at him.  He took his cock in his hands and rubbed it all over my lips, and slapped it across my lips a few times.  Since we were standing outside in the middle of the day we started hearing voices so we decided it best to move into the car.  I finished him off and we settled in to talk and catch up for a bit.  All of a sudden he said remember I sent you a text a week or so ago about a big plan I had for you.  I said yes, are you going to tell me what your plan was?  He said look down by the door.  In the little storage compartment was a large piece of soft rope.  He then leaned over and took the rope and started to wrap it around my wrists as he told me in step by step detail what he plans to do to me.  I'm not going to tell just in case we ever get the chance to do it... it will make a great story.  So we said our goodbye's and that was that!
I did get one really good fuck Sunday morning from the hubby before all the craziness started with surgery, etc.
During the week of surgery I received several kind emails from my "friends".  Making sure everything went well, we were all okay, etc.  C even tried to work it out to meet me one night in the parking garage for a quickie and it was a sweet thought but I knew it was not where my head was at.  I was very focused on my family as I needed to be.  The week coming home was a time for me to have a small child in my bed every night and a thoughtful husband making sure whatever we needed was taken care of so we could both rest and I could focus on him healing and he would sleep on the couch or in the kids room.  As that week started to come to a close I felt myself getting frustrated and pissy.  I realized that I had not really left the house or done anything for myself in weeks and I was starting to PMS.  I decided I needed some attention.  I asked my mom to come over for a few hours to give me a break so I could run some errands.  I thought I had made plans with L but as the day wore on he got busy and it just never worked out.  Then my monthly visitor came about 4 days early.  I couldn't get a break for the life of me.  Hubby had said he was going to take good care of me over the weekend and he feel asleep after a fun filled day of golfing and it didn't happen, the next day I started.  :(  I also seem to be in a slump with L.  I told him he seemed distant, he said he knows I'm going through a lot and wanted to give me space but thinks about me everyday.  You certainly couldn't tell!  Anyway, he is single and deserves to do whatever makes him happy!  I am and will always be an action speaks louder than words lady!
This week I went back to work.  I knew it would be a tough week and I was right!  My boss is seriously  a horrible person! I don't know if I will ever get over leaving a really great job to work for a narcissistic, controlling cunt!  Yep I said it, she is!
So in all of the craziness of life, lack of attention I found myself perusing the Internet.  The next thing I know I'm on Ashley Madison (which it has been over 2 years since I've even looked on there).  I whip up a quick profile so I can look around and I'm always amazed at what is out there.  I've always been really good at putting together a decent profile on sites so I just simply laid it all out there.  I explained that I know what I like and what I want.  I've had many different types of lovers but lately have been feeling like I'm missing something and want more.  I tell about my past on AM, and I give full disclosure about my HSV.  I knew it would be a long shot but figured who knows.
Let's just say that I have been pleasantly overwhelmed by the response I've gotten.  I'm almost a little taken back as I didn't really expect it.  Outside of J and one other I really haven't been with anyone that doesn't have it.  It's not that I'm not open to having a lover without it but it does make me think much harder about my sexual partners.  These are almost all married men having affairs.  There have been a few extremely attractive singles I've chatted with but that has never been my preference.  I'm allowing myself to be picky and have only given my private email to a few and have been chatting with them.  I've offered my private key to many on the site but I'm already feeling like I'm in over my head!
I will be seeing C sometime this week and to say I'm excited would be an understatement.  He brought to my attention that sometime later this month will be out 1 year anniversary.  Neither of us can remember the exact date but he sure did say some pretty sweet things about me and never dreaming he'd meet the woman that would change his sex life forever.
L is texting me daily in hopes of us finding some time soon and J thinks he's going to coax me into letting him use that rope on my sometime soon.  Now I have a few new gentleman all very worth the time it seems looking to have a possible meet and greet sometime soon!
I may have found myself a predicament.  You see this is what happens to attention whores!  We get ourselves in over our heads.
All I really want is one man... well my hubby and one man.... one other man that can take me to a place sexually that all of them combined have not taken me.  All of them wrapped up into one man plus a little  more.  Someone that will be my friend, give me attention in and out of the bedroom, long for my touches, make me long for theirs, and own my body like no one ever has!  Too much to ask for?  Probably!  I can't help but wonder if one of these men I've been chatting with could be that man... should I shut it down now and be happy with what I have or take my chances and see what else is out there?
I have not told my BF yet.  she will be the one to talk some sense into me... or NOT.  I told her we needed to get together as I had some purging I needed to do.  Her response... Should I bring my Rolodex, lol.  I said we should probably have a few drinks for sure!
Maybe it will be a very interesting week. I know one thing is certain.  My pussy will be getting some seriously needed attention this week!
I should be back with something good by next weekend!
Have a good week everyone!

Last weeks trifecta (is there a quadfecta)?

Although I'm insanely busy with work and I truly have been trying to stay somewhat focused lately I'm still me and I still make time for the ones that truly matter.  Lately that is C, L and hubby (strange but true).

Things with C have been different this time around.  I have kind of backed down a little from him and let him take the lead and this has surely been working to my advantage.  After our last encounter together I sent him an email just basically saying thanks and how much I enjoyed myself.  He replied a day or so later and said the usual... it was the best, it felt so good to be inside me, etc.  Well that was on a Friday and I knew he would be with the girlfriend all weekend so I didn't reply back.  On Sunday he emailed me about his weekend and asked if I had received his message cause he didn't hear back from me and he had such a great time.  Ha... I like that!  Of course I replied and told him how great he was, etc. and just said I was busy and knew he was away for the weekend.  So he wanted to know when we could get together again.  So we decided on Wednesday, only his son was home so he decided to sneak me into his basement while his son was asleep upstairs.  He's a teenager so he stays up most of the night and sleeps all day.
WEDNESDAY: So he picked me up in a parking lot near his house and I hopped in.  I have to say I was really nervous for some reason!  Him being daring is also not his nature!  Kinda funny, when we pulled into the neighborhood I slipped down into my seat and this time he covered me with a blanket.  That was a first but it didn't bother me at all.  I think it's kind of funny the lengths we all go for some of our fun!  So after he closed the garage door, he went in and checked everything out and then we went right down into the basement.  So the people that lived there before the husband had built a recording studio down there so there is this room with two sets of doors that leads into another room with the sound proof walls and then that leads into another room.  It's very cool!  Anyway, when we walked in he had put this inflatable couch that makes into a bed and he had it all set up with pillows and blankets and the lights were all dimmed.  It was nice!  C wastes no time with me.  He immediately had me stripped down on the bed.  I know I've said it before but I'll say it again, I love the effect I have on this man.  I love that when I kiss him and take his pants off he is always rock hard for me!!  We have fallen into a pattern it seems.  This is good and bad!  It's good because he is so amazing and I know that even though it will go the same way every time with very little being different I know that he will satisfy me over and over until I'm begging him to stop!
This time was no different until it was his turn.  He asked me if I would mind if he recorded us having anal or him cumming in my mouth.  I told him that was fine.  We tried anal first.  Funny thing about anal is that it always hurts a little at first but I can always take it but we had no lube and for some reason my ass was just not into it.  He tried and tried all the while his phone trying to record it but it was just not going to happen this time!  So we switched and he stood up with his camera on record and I got down on my knees and did what he loves me to do!  I wet my finger and slid it ever so gently in his ass (after I got it nice and wet with my mouth) and began to suck and lick his cock like my favorite stick of candy!  I love that I can take all of him in my mouth.  He took the back of my hair in his hands and guided me up and down his shaft.  He would tell me to look at the camera with his cock in his mouth.  When he was ready to cum he pulled me off and stroked himself a few times and then he came all over my face and my mouth.  It was excellent.  He shot it everywhere.  In my hair, eyelashes, up my nose, and down my throat.  I'm sure it made for a great video moment.  Then like the good girl I am, I wiped as much of it off of my face and licked my fingers clean.  I wanted to watch the video but I didn't get to- YET!  He said it was great and he loves it but I would like to see it myself although I'm sure I would just critique it!  I'm so critical of myself!  That is the first time I've ever had anyone record me!  Shortly after we cleaned up we tipped toed out and he took me back to my car.  Other than an email telling me I'm the best I have not heard from him since although I know the girlfriend was moving here this weekend.  I know we will not see each other as often but right now I'm good with that and I will continue to enjoy him when he's mine and not worry about the rest!

THURSDAY: I headed out to my morning appointment and I knew that L was not to far working.  He stays in pretty good contact day to day, sometimes to much contact but we had discussed meeting up for a bit if our schedules allowed.  Well he started texting just before lunch.  I still had a few things to do and then he got a flat so we decided to chat again in an hour.  So a bit later he checks with me and says he will meet me at a little corner bar down the road in 15 minutes.  So I freshen up, remove my panties and meet him in the parking lot.  As soon as I get out of my car he grabs me, pushes me into my car and starts to kiss me.  He tells me how sexy I am and then takes my hand and puts it on his rock hard cock and tells me that is what I do to him every time he's near me or thinks of me!  So I take his hand and place it up my dress and between my legs and run his fingers across my now soaking wet pussy and remind him that's what he does to me when we are together or when I think of him!!  So we head into the bar.  Now truthfully folks I was thinking we might grab a cheap room for a few hours as I could have used some 1:1 with him but maybe that is for another day.  So we headed inside and everyone that was there was sitting at the bar so we found a little table in the corner.  He ordered us a few beers and I headed to the ladies room.  When I came back out there was a beer and a shot sitting in front of me.  We did the shot, ordered some food and I drank my beer.  So L is very touchy feely and he loves that I don't wear panties as he loves to run his hands up and between my legs, especially in public places.  I of course, love letting him!  We eat, we chat, we kiss, we touch, we do another shot, and he orders us another beer.  I drink my drinks while he tells me how much he likes me.  I like how much he likes me! I didn't think I would like him this much but I do!  I think he's super sexy even though he's not my normal type (who needs a type), I like how sexy he makes me feel!  I like knowing that he thinks about me and fantasizes about me!  I like the way he kisses me and touches me when we are together and makes me feel like I'm the only girl in the room!  What girl doesn't like all that-RIGHT!  Trust me, I'm not getting all mushy over him I'm just recognizing that, well, maybe he's kinda special right now!  So after two beers and two shots in the middle of the day I'm now super horny and ready for some action!  So we leave, hop in his car and start driving.  I'm instantly climbing over the middle console (whoever invented those obviously didn't get much car action- hate them) and I'm trying to get between his legs.  This made him no longer care where we were going, he just found a spot.  Not a great spot but it was a spot.  So I continue to find my spot between his legs and quickly he grabs the back of my hair and we are in business!  He has a great cock too!  Different but nonetheless great and it's super beautiful.  Nice shape, no bends/curves, nothing!  Such a pretty penis! :)  Now L does not cum easily from oral.  He tends to like to cum during sex but today I was going to have my reward in my mouth.  He likes dirty talk and that gets him off.  So with his cock in my mouth I look up and smile and tell him how much I love to suck his cock... how good it feels in my mouth... how much I want to feel him cum in my mouth... how I liked the way he held my hair... and with that it took about another 10 seconds before I earned my reward!!  Then for being such a good girl I received another reward... his mouth devouring my pussy!  I was super hot and all worked up so it only took about 2 minutes before I had his head in a lock between my thighs squealing in delight!  He wouldn't stop, and he told me his cock was already hard again so I decided it was time to feel him inside me.  I climbed on top of him and rode him very slow.  I enjoyed how good he felt inside of me and since I had just cum I was very sensitive inside and he was hitting me in all the right places.  Now that I know how much he enjoys hearing a woman talk to him (not necessarily dirty but sexy) I have been using this to my advantage!  So we are both just taking our time and I'm kissing him and whispering in his ear how good he feels inside me, and how much I love riding him and we start to pick up our pace together and I tell him I'm going to cum again and how much I want him to cum inside me.... and then... we came... together!  That just happens so rarely with me.  I can probably count on one hand how many times that has worked out for me!  Well it did that day and it was GOOD!  I must say that although car sex is not my favorite... the way things are with L lately he is definitely quickly becoming my favorite!  We seem to fit together well!  So after all that he took me back to my car, made out a bit longer and then went our separate ways.  Although at that point I was pretty much useless for work so I went home and took a nap as I had the back to school picnic later that night!

Okay, moving forward.... that ends my delicious lovers stories... for some reason the stories with the hubby just don't have that same zest and appeal as my others!  But I will say this... he has been exceptionally good lately, and I don't just mean staying out of trouble cause truthfully I haven't been looking at his shit much lately but trust me I can tell from the little I pay attention that he has been good!!  He has been thoughtful, and helpful, and even kind!  These are the things that help me to love him and appreciate him.  When we get along we really do have a great relationship and the only reason I have stayed this long is always because I hold out for these moments!  Also when he acts this way it makes me want to give myself to him!  So...
FRIDAY:  We had a good night, things were going well and we had a nice evening.  We decided to go to bed together and we were laying in bed watching tv and I started to rub his back, then scratch and tickle his back, then kissing his back, and then moving my way down.  One thing led to another and I told him that I wanted him to take my ass tonight!  There is nothing my hubby loves more than to have my ass and I wanted it equally as bad that night!  He not only took it but he TOOK it in every way possible, and I came folks, like top 3 orgasms in my history on Friday night!!
It was so good Friday that I decided to give him more on Saturday and then on Sunday I even decided to give him a free no return necessary blow job!  See how nice I can be.

So all in all last week and this past weekend was not so bad!  I say all of this and I write all of this because it helps me keep some perspective.  Life is stressful!  Work is stressful!  Dealing with my 6 year old about to have open heart surgery in two weeks is STRESSFUL!  The truth of the matter is that as I'm preparing myself and my family to go through this surgery I find myself starting to slowly check out.  I withdrawal a bit from everything and everyone.  I start to deal with my stress on an inner basis.  I'm usually really good at keeping up and dealing with my life and everyone else's as well and life stress and everything just goes along with it.  We all lean on each other but this is different for me.  I wish I could just take the next month off from everything except for dealing with my family and keeping us all safe and healthy and getting through the first 3 days after surgery which are the hardest!  I wake up everyday and for the most part go through the same routine.  I'm lucky to have such great friends and family but now my days are changing.  I'm tired, and in my moments alone instead of wanting to talk to a friend, or text a lover or whatever I typically do for myself, I find myself alone with my thoughts.  Not wanting to do my normal things but instead I am living inside my head.  So I won't ruin a great sex post with my inner head issues today!  I've still got two weeks from today before surgery so maybe I will write an entire post about something not sex related.  That is unless something better sex related happens first!  We shall see!!

Oh I've got a few good stories!!

I swear I truly intend to write often but lately everything seems to get the best of me.  I don't talk a whole lot about my "real" personal life but my youngest son has a heart condition and we are quickly approaching his next open hear surgery and to top it off he landed in the hospital last week needing an emergency appendectomy.  Poor little guy can't seem to catch a break!  I of course spent the entire week with him sleeping on a window seat.  I also am still only one month into my new job that I am NOT loving.  So when I'm not taking care of kids or working 60 hours week or dealing with my douche bag husband of course I'm trying to fit in some time with a lover (or two or three).

So in my last post I talked about my upcoming date with L.  I'm going to skip much about that story so I can get to the good stuff.  Lets just say we had a wonderful "date".  However, we ended up drinking to much, drove around for an hour trying to find a hotel room because there was a fishing tournament in town so by the time we found the room we were both tired and I was tipsy.  So we did our thing but both walked away wanting a re-do!  But again, he is a great guy and makes me feel like the prettiest, sexiest woman alive!  Oh baby, we got our re-do.

Hubby came back from his recent boys weekend and apparently had an epiphany or something.  He seems to want to work this out very much.  Funny thing is that the tables are turning.  Like suddenly I feel bad for him.  He needs me more than I need him.  I mean I know we both need each other but seriously at this point he needs me more.  Maybe I kind of have the upper hand or something.  We are far from good, but I keep giving him chances.  On a good note I asked him to PLEASE change his passwords again on everything and take the power to look away from me.  I feel like what I don't know can't hurt me.  If he read this blog-OMG it would be awful.  I would never want that so why would I want a glimpse into the fucked up shit that he does!  So it's been about two weeks since I've looked at anything and you know what, we have gotten along pretty darn good.  No stupid fights, he's been great, we've had some great sex.  So one day at a time and we will see what happens.  Either way, I am stronger and stronger and I know deep down that if push comes to shove I can and will live without him and be okay!  Right now I choose to let him stay!

Okay good stuff, here we come!  Recently Kitty wrote a post about there being something in the air and all of her lovers coming out of the woodwork.  I love this because it's so true.  I find that once or twice a year I will hear from multiple past, present, etc. lovers.  This can be troublesome for Mrs.M as I love the attention and I can find myself quickly booking short little stints of time with all of them.  This is bad!  This time I only indulged in several fun texting sessions but this gives them hope and then they stick around for awhile.  Anyway, I so easily get side tracked!

So as I mentioned I was stuck in the hospital all week last week and then I had a work function that I had to attend Friday night.  Well one boy had been texting me all week long.  I probably never talked about him before because I never actually hung out with him.  I always wanted to because he has the largest cock I've ever seen and I was always curious to give it a ride- I didn't!  I was thinking about going to see him Friday night but hubby kept texting me and I knew I was likely going out with L again on Saturday.  Somehow, I think because hubby was feeling bad for me for being at the hospital all week, I managed to get him agree to let me go out again on Saturday night.  He thought I was going out with the girls.  L's family was out of town for the entire weekend (he is now technically divorced but they are still living in the same house as a family) so we met at the local pub right down the road from his house.  I wore a cute little black skirt, no undies, and a nice top.  He met me in the parking lot, kissed me and told me how great I looked.  When we got inside he said he wanted to sit somewhere off by ourselves.  So we found a little spot in the corner, ordered drinks and from that point on this man could not keep his hands off me.  He was always rubbing my legs, occasionally his hand would drift further and further up  my skirt.  He loves when I don't wear panties!  It is obvious that he really likes me because he tells me all the time.  I still think he's safe for several reasons.  I know he wants me to stay married cause he wants me as his "girlfriend" but that's all he wants.  He's not looking to get married again or anything to serious.
So anyway, we only stay at the bar for about an hour cause we simply just can't keep our hands off each other.  So as we are heading out, of course, he runs into some folks from his neighborhood, ugh!  He chats, we leave.  I follow him back to his house and we go inside.  I get the quick tour of the house and then we have the genius idea to smoke a little bowl, lol!  So after all of that we have a beer and he sits me up on his kitchen counter.  I wrap my legs around him and we start kissing.  I am telling you the heat between us this night was intense.  There was just this sexual energy.  He runs his hands up my skirt and between my legs and I am so wet!  He loves how wet my pussy gets.  He lays me back on the counter and starts to lick my pussy right there.  After a bit we decide we should just go downstairs to his room so we can be more comfortable.  I'm not going to get into gross detail but I just want to say that we stripped each other down and we had the hottest sex I've ever had for 2 hours.  This man kept his cock hard for me for seriously two hours. He licked me and fucked me, I rode him, he fucked my ass, I sucked him.  He spanked me, and my legs were bent in every position possible.  There were rough moments, gentle & intense moments where he looked me in the eyes, he talked dirty to me, and I to him.  He whispered in my ears, I came six or seven times.  I took excellent pictures of him between my legs.  I have a nice L & MrsM gallery going!!  After he came, we laid there for awhile and had another beer.  After about a half hour he decided he wanted to go again.  He licked me again for awhile, and then I started to suck him hard.  While I was sucking him I noticed that his breathing was changing and his hand on my head was falling off.  I looked up and watched him and then all of sudden... HE SNORED!  yes that's right, he fell asleep/passed out with his cock in my mouth.  I laughed so hard!  I stopped and just watched him for awhile thinking- well this is a first!  So finally I got up and got dressed.  I was going to just let myself out but I didn't want his door to be unlocked all night!  So when I was ready to go I woke him up.  He was startled at first and a little disoriented.  We laughed and he said, "well damn woman, your wore me out"!  It was pretty funny!  so he walked me out, told me how great it was, gave me a nice good night kiss and I left.
So as I get into my car I look at my phone and realize that my husband has been texting me for the past hour.  Sending me dirty pictures and texts and telling me to hurry home!  OH SHIT!
So I text him back that my GF is really drunk and sick and I'm trying to get her under control so we can get home. At this point it's sometime after 1.  He keeps texting me and I'm just hoping I can hold him off til he falls asleep by the time I get home.  So I stop at McD's to get a smoothie and I'm taking my time.  When I get close to home I decide to stop at 7-11 to use the bathroom to freshen up and I'm so nervous I now need a cigarette.  I rarely smoke as I quit over a year ago but every now and I again I will have one.  So as I pull into the parking spot a black jeep pulls up next to me.  As I get out so does a man.  We smile at each other and he says "well hello, where are you going"?  I say, "into the store", he says "well hurry up".  I think this is very strange.  I take my time in the store but when I come out he is leaning up against the hood of my car waiting for me.  He says "so where are you going"?  I tell him I'm heading home for the night.  He asked me where I had been.  I said I don't think you really want to know.  He then says "can I come home with you".  I say "you must be drunk, do you often try and pick up woman in the parking lot of 7-11"?  He says, "no, but you just smiled at me and you are so damn sexy I couldn't help myself".  I laugh and say I'm going home to my husband.  He says "well call him and ask him if I can come too".  I tell him he's crazy.  He says "I just think you have sex written all over your body".  At this point I'm partially annoyed, a little buzzed and ready to fuck with this rather attractive 40ish man.  So I say "baby, I just spent the entire night fucking my boyfriend and now I'm probably going to go home and fuck my husband"!  I think I saw his jaw drop and his cock enlarge!  He says "OMG, I bet your pussy tastes so good".  I said "baby I have the sweetest tasting pussy in the world"!  At this point he starts to get close to me and says "can I taste you".  So I'm in full slut mode now folks!  So I put my fingers up my skirt, between my legs and finger myself with two fingers.  I take one finger and place it in his mouth and then I lick the other!  He's dieing at this point.  So he's like "well that was great but it wasn't what I had in mind.  How about you follow me over to that parking lot and let me make you cum one more time tonight.  Okay, I may be a slut, and flirty but I am not stupid.  I tell him that's not going to happen and I'm mostly just having some fun with him and that I'm ready to go home for the night!  Now he's got me pinned between my car and him.  He's pressing his very hard cock into my leg and he keeps trying to put his hand up my skirt (um yes this is all happening right outside the 7-11).  So I decide to kiss him a little.  We start to kiss, and he says "Your a good little slut, I should just fuck you right here in this parking lot".  At this point I tell him that I can guarantee he will be going home and best case masturbating and thinking about me because nothing is going to happen.  He got a little pushy at one point, enough that the guys in the store came out to make sure everything was okay.  I assured them it was.  So he gave me his card and pretty much begged me to call him so we could get together some time.  He promised me it would be worth my time and he would treat me "proper".  If his kissing is any inclination of his fucking it might be more like a stabbing!  I'm pretty sure I will pass!  Anyway, after about another 10 minutes of begging and a little kissing and touching he finally lets me in my car.  Now I was a little concerned that he was going to follow me so I drove like 5 mph until he finally passed me and then I hauled ass home.
I swear I don't know how I get myself into this shit.  I mean who uses that kind of crazy ass approach and gets laid?  I must admit that I did enjoy messing with him a little.  I'm sure I had some kind of crazy sex pheromones coming off me that night!
Of course when I got home the hubby was still awake!  AHHH!  Thankfully he got tired enough that he went ahead and got himself off so I was off the hook there.  We talked for a bit about my night out with the girls and then went to bed.  However, the next morning he work me up with a nice stiff cock and again with the pheromones I must have been giving off because he fucked me 2 more times that Sunday!  Needless to say all my holes were very sore by Sunday night!
I took a break for Monday and Tuesday but today (Wednesday) was a new day.  I kind of double booked myself today.  I was on L's side of town for work so I picked him up on his job site and we found a little parking lot for some nice heavy petting and making out.  Nobody came but we both had a great time!  I do really like him and I'm very happy with how things are going with him right now!
Then tonight hubby took the boys to a baseball game so I met C-Don Wan at the local motel for a lovely session.  Nothing new to tell with him.  He's just simply an amazing lover, hence the Don Wan.  I am in a great place with him.  I've chilled out and I'm just enjoying any time I have with him and letting him chase me for a change!  He's gorgeous and amazing!  I hope to have him as a lover for a very long time but I will take it one amazing orgasm at a time!
So other than that J, my lunchtime playmate has been hot and heavy texting me for some fun.  We are just trying to make our schedules mesh!  Soon I'm sure but I think I'm good this week!
Definitely no lack of attention or loving going on for this girl!  Truth be told- the amount of stress in my life right now with my job, kid, hubby, etc.  This is the only thing that has been keeping me sane.  That and reading about everybody else's lives as well!  I truly enjoy all of it!!

TGIF- date tonight, my few hours with Don Wan & more trouble at home!

I want to write today but I can't seem to get my thoughts straight and I should be working but  instead I'm reading blogs, writing, and messing around!  I have a date tonight.  Well kind of, no actually its a date.  I'm going out with L.  Hubby is out of town for the weekend (thank goodness) so we have had this planned for a few weeks now.  He is taking me to dinner in a little town half way between both of our homes.  Neither of us wanted to be to close to home so as not to risk running into people we know.  This is one of my biggest fears although pretty soon it isn't going to matter anymore!  So after dinner there are lots of little bars and such so we can park our cars and just walk.  I asked him if he planned to get me drunk and take advantage me.  Trust me he doesn't need to get me drunk.  I'm so ready!  I'm a cheap date, I don't drink much and since I get sick very easily from alcohol it's best not to attempt to get me drunk.  I told him unless he wanted to spend the evening holding my hair as I prayed to the porcelain gods he better watch my intake!  I think after we are going to get a room near by.  I was thinking this was going to just be a nice evening but after talking with him yesterday it appears he is planning on us staying the night together.  This makes me a little nervous.  I like to joke with him so I said "oh we are having a sleep over, so I should bring my pj's and fuzzy slippers, and my tooth brush.   Are you going to spoon me?  Do you snore?"  He said if I wanted to go home I could and I just said we can play it by ear and see how the evening goes.  Knowing me I may sneak out in the middle of the night, lol.  Especially if he snores!!  Actually my dog will be home alone so even if I do sleep over I will have to get up early in the morning and get home.  Truth be told I'm a little nervous about staying the night with him.  This is a guy who has already asked me questions about the "L" word and how I would feel if he was to say it.  I like him and everything but one of the reasons I chose him to spend some time with is because I feel like he's safe.  Safe meaning it's highly unlikely that I will fall for him.  He is so different from my type.  I know that shit happens and I could fall for him but it's highly unlikely! He also texted me last week cause I was a little distant (cause I'm so busy with my new job) and asked if everything was okay, if we were okay.  Are you seeing the red flags?!  Regardless after the week I have had I am looking forward to spending the evening with someone who really likes me, treats me very well and I know is going to make me cum multiple times!!!  I'll let ya know how it goes!

Things around home have been very bad the past few weeks.  I'm really not prepared to spend much time on this subject right now.  Let's just say I think every time we talk about breaking up and then we decide to continue to work on it I get a little bit stronger, I see him more and more for who he really is, and I get closer to being able to move and finally rid myself of him completely.  It is such a complicated issue with him.  What is crazy is that we had a few good weeks.  We were going out, communicating, having lots of good sex, etc.  Then me and the kids got sick, then I had my period and then this week my uncle died and I spent most of my free time with family this week.  So I got up to go to the gym one morning and looked at his phone.  Of course he had talked with someone late one night.  He had a good story for it later but I didn't believe him so later I pulled the phone records up and looked at his calls and texts and found that over the past few weeks he has had multiple conversations with multiple people (woman, men, couples, who knows?).  Of course he immediately blames me for everything.  He says I'm a bitch, I'm not nice to him, I don't give him any attention, my plate is to full.  It is me that drives him to do these things.  Honestly I'm just tired of being blamed for everything and I do mean everything.  He is very manipulative.  He doesn't want to take a look in the mirror and have accountability for anything.  He lies to my face.  He doesn't help me around the house.  He does not take charge of this household or this family.  He forces me to be, the leader and be in control of everything and then hates me for it and blames me for it.  I'm just so sick of it.  So I told him I'm done.  He was mean, said lots of mean things.  Continued to talk to people he shouldn't all day to try and make him feel better about himself.  Now when he gets home if I'm nice at all he will start to like me again, assume I will forgive him, and the process will start over AGAIN.  My intention is to not allow that to happen.  I intend to follow through this time.  I intend to be strong.  If and when I do this he will realize I'm serious and that I have the upper hand on him which will majorly piss him off and so he will get upset, call me lots of horrible names, blame me for everything and then immediately go off of the deep end join every sex site available and begin to spread his wickedness around to anyone willing and able and he will throw it in my face every chance he gets.  I know he will not take the high road and apologize, be sympathetic, apologetic, remorseful or fight for me and this family.  So I will have to deal with his wrath until I either decide to be weak and take him back or until I can get him out of this house.  I pray for the strength to get to the part where he moves out.  If I can do that than I will be okay.  I will be able to get along with him so we can do what's best for our children.  I will no longer be subject to his poison and white trash mentality.  I will be able to focus on my job, my life and my kids!  He has no moral fiber and I need to just be strong and finally do this for myself.  I no longer believe that I will ever be able to trust him or respect him so this is the only thing left to do!  Wish me luck and I will write about it more as I'm able to sort it all out!

So I saved the best for last.  My Don Wan- C.  He moved up here last weekend.  He was over an hour away from me but now he is less than 30 min away from me and in an area where I go for work on a weekly to bi weekly basis.  However, girlfriend will be moving here at the beginning of September :(  He asked me to come to his house as he wanted to Cristin it properly and he wanted to visualize my face and fucking me in every room.  I'm not sure if that's sweet or messed up, lol.  Anyway, we worked it out to meet towards the end of my work day Wednesday.  I parked at a little pizza shop right near his house and he picked me up.  He brought his little dog (her little dog) who is the cutest thing ever.  The dog liked me very much!  It's a little puff ball of fluffy fur.  So soft to touch!  Anyway, we went back to the house and he gave me the grand tour stopping to kiss me in every room.  When he kisses me it's like movie star kiss.  He always takes me by the back of my neck with one hand and then takes the other hand and puts it deep in my hair and pulls me into him and kisses me very deep and very passionate!  It makes me melt!  So the house is pretty empty and they haven't really put much away yet so all he had in his room was a twin mattress on the floor since she is bringing the bed with her move.  So I asked for a minute to freshen up a bit since it was a hot day and I had been running around all day.  When I came out he took me into the bedroom and we started kissing and undressing each other.  One thing I totally love about him is that all we had done was kiss and I had just run my hands down his back and arms and when I moved to take his shorts off his cock was just rock hard!  God I love that!  It is such a turn on to me that he gets that turned on from kissing me.  So he undresses me and puts his fingers between my legs and I was already so very wet and ready for him.  He bends me down over the mattress and his cock slides right into my wet pussy.  God he felt soooo good!  Nice long stokes all the way in and all the way out.  All the way back in and back out.  Very slow.  Now the damn dog was sitting on the bed watching me and kept trying to get in my face to he told the dog to leave.  A few minutes later I feel a tickle on my toes and look down and the damn dog is licking my toes, lol.  It was super funny but then he got rid of the dog!  So then he laid me down the bed and did what he does best!  Lick my pussy!  IF I was told I had one day left on this earth and could have anything I wanted it would be to have him lick my pussy (well maybe not but you get the jest).  He likes to build on it.  He licks me til I cum the first time then he comes up and slides his cock inside me.  He again grabs the back of my neck with one hand and puts the other hand in my hair and kisses me passionately while he fucks me, only it's really more like he's making love to me.  He looks at me in between kisses.  Deep in my eyes.  It makes me crazy.  Then he goes back down.  This time he adds one finger and licks me til I cum again.  Then he comes back up, slides his cock in me and repeats that process again.  Then he goes back down.  This time he licks my ass real good and then goes back to my pussy but this time he puts one finger in my ass and one finger in my pussy and licks me til I cum so hard I laugh or cry!  I'm not kidding.... it's just fucking amazing!!  Then he fucks me a little bit more.  Then I ask very nicely  ... can I please make you cum now!  So he allows me a turn.  I love to lick this man's cock.  It is just perfect!  But it's not just his cock.  I like to spend my time everywhere down there.  I kiss all around him.  I like his inner thighs, til I find my way down to his ass.  I lick his ass really, really good while I sneak a little lube on my finger.  Then I slowly slide one finger in his ass while I suck and lick his balls.  Once I have my finger and moving I take his cock in my mouth and suck and move in unison.  I love that when he cums he squeezes my head with his legs and I love that I can usually feel the first squirt of cum hit the back of my throat.  I bury his cock deep in my throat until he unloads every last drop.  Then I swallow it, and make to sure lick him nice and clean on my way out!  Then we just lay and talk for a bit. We had not seen in each other in a long time so we had a lot to catch up on.  We finally made it downstairs and talked a lot more, kissed, etc.  I often wonder if I leave hubby, if he and I would find a way to give it shot.  I doubt it but I do think he will not like it much when I start dating!  I will not worry about any of that now and just enjoy him while I can!  Shortly after, he took me back to my car, kissed me, told me how much he enjoys his time with me, etc and we went our separate ways.  He did send me a very nice email later which we all know I appreciate and now the girlfriend will be in town all weekend and he can visualize my face in his room while he's fucking her this weekend (evil smile)!  I will see him again next week!  I hope!
So funny enough I could have had a trifecta this week too.  I got a text late last night that JJ was in town.  He had a date with a woman near by and it was an actual date so no lovin for him.  He wanted me to sneak out and when I told him hubby was away he wanted me to sneak him in but I turned him down.  Wasn't really into it.  One, I didn't want to be sloppy seconds to his awesome date; two, I had just had a great time with C the day before; three, I am seeing L tonight.  I like JJ as a friend and think we will talk for years to come and I might hang out with him again but he's a better friend than lover and I've got about all I can handle right now!  I also get texted from J on a weekly basis wanting to have some lunch time fun but again I've been avoiding any plans with him as well.  So I am going to have a kid free/hubby free weekend.  Date tonight, baby shower tomorrow afternoon and bachlorette party tomorrow night and lots of sleep and paper work to catch up on Sunday but all in all I think it should be a pretty great weekend.  It better be cause I have a feeling between dealing with the stress of my new job and hubby next week I'm going to need to make all my weekends count!  Keep your fingers crossed for me!  Hope everyone has a great weekend and we shall see what more is to come!!

Cant escape my Don Wan

So this weekend it happened.  He emailed me.  I think deep down I knew he would but I did have my moments that I wondered if maybe this time it was over for good.  You see we have taken these breaks a few times now.  It starts to get a little intense because he starts to tell me what I want to hear but then I start to feel more than I like to feel and he starts to pull away and then I am usually the one that pulls back and distances myself from him.  Then sometimes we email back and forth a bit but then I usually will start my "other" prowling and just stop talking to him all together. 

I have never had a lover like C before.  He is possibly the only lover I've ever had that I can honestly say I could be with him outside of an affair.  He is very much "my type".  Often times I have stayed away from men that are "my type" because I don't want that to even be an option.  In addition, he is very protective, overbearing, controlling.  Now most would think that this is a bad thing but truth of the matter is that sometimes these qualities are a good thing.  My hubby is the exact opposite and my father possesses many of these types of qualities so maybe that is why I am so fond of them.  When I have been with C he makes it very clear that he does not want to share me with anyone else except that he knows I am occasionally with my husband.  He doesn't care about my past lovers but he wants and expects that when we are together I will not have any other lovers.  Well anyone who has ever read any of my other posts knows that this just doesn't work well for me and I am one that likes for all of my lovers to believe they are my one and only.  We all like to feel special right?.  But the funny thing is that when I'm seriously seeing C I tend to not really spend any time on my other lovers except when I have a lul and don't get to spend much time with him.

Just a quick recap on C.  He has a very serious girlfriend.  She currently lives out of state but will be moving back here (with him) at the beginning of September.  Their relationship is strange.  They totally act like a married couple in regards to so many things but he isn't really truly happy with her and says he would never marry her but he isn't going to let her go either.  Whatever, it's not my problem but one of the issues we have always had is that he isn't married but there are SO many rules with him in regards to our relationship.  When we can talk, how we talk, etc. etc.  I hate rules!  I mean I know there are rules with lovers.  Trust me I have my fair share but I prefer to be with someone that wants to talk with me occasionally and text.  Someone who occasionally wants to go out and have a drink or dinner.  Everything with him has to be done in private.  We have barely ever talked on the phone.  We text but we had to download this private app on our phones so it uses our data instead of texting so numbers can't be traced and most of our talking is done by email and we have NEVER been out in public together.  He doesn't even like to walk out of the hotel room at the same time.  My other issues with him is that he will talk to me about love, and being close and fill my head with whatever he wants at the time and then if I ever try and call him out on it he will say things like I have always known what this relationship is and where we stand.  OKAY... in a way it's true.  I do know where we stand.  I know that it's an affair.  I know that we are not likely ever going to be together... I mean you don't see me leaving my hubby or anything... but I have always said that I would love very much to have just 1 lover.   But that I would want that to be a man that I can not only have incredible sex with but also a friend.  Someone that I can share things with, trust, spend time with, talk to, etc.  The reason I have almost always had more than one lover is because I have never found all of that in one person.  When I first met him I thought I had found all of those things and it started off that way but it didn't last.  So the last time we started talking again he went right back to all hot and heavy with me but this time I didn't fall for it.  I saw him occasionally but tried to keep my heart distant plus this was as things were kind of starting to get better with hubby.  We didn't get to spend much time together either.  Well then he texted me one day that SHE was going to be moving back here at the end of the summer so he wanted to spend as much time with me as possible this summer.  I asked him if he would continue to see me after she moved back and he said he doubted it.  So it was at that point that I said well since we have just started to see each other again then why delay the inevitable.  I don't want to spend a summer enjoying you just to know that you will take it all away from me when she moves back.  He is a drug to me!  I have never had sex with a man that even begins to compare with how he makes me feel.  He is utterly amazing! So part of me wanted to get as much as I could but the other part of me knew that it would be so hard to give him up at the end and I could potentially get my heart broken and Mrs. M prefers to keep her heart in tact!  So I ended it as I wrote about in a previous post.  I guess I didn't realize what an effect I had on him.... 

I don't get a whole lot of email anymore.  I have closed down my profile on the PS site.  Most of my "friends" have my number and tend to text me more than email me so I get an occasional email from a "friend" or every once in awhile someone from my past pops up with an email.  I have one pen pal man I have written to for years and every once in awhile I get an email regarding someone leaving a comment on a blog post.  I know I'm pretty small potatoes so those are far and few!  So anyway I have gotten to where I don't even check it but once or twice a week.  Trust me I get 100's of email for work so I'm not crying (well not much, lol).  So when I checked my email last weekend and saw that he had written I was a little shocked.  It always starts the same with lots of small talk about how are you, oh good how are you, blah blah.   Then he told me he was moving up this way this coming weekend, that she would be moving at the beginning of September, etc. etc.  He asked about my new job, the hubby, kids, all that.  Then he started talking about us seeing each other again.  The emails have been endless.  He has been pouring his heart out to me about why he likes me so much.  How much he missed me, how he thinks about me all the time and wonders about who I'm seeing and who is taking care of his pussy, lol.  He says he fantasizes about us being together.  He looks at old videos and pictures I've sent him that he's managed to hide away.  He told me if I would consider seeing him again he would find a way to make it work whether she was here or not.  That even though we aren't "together" that sexually he has never been with anyone like me and that he would give anything for us to start seeing each other again.  That he wants us to be "lovers" forever, and that is just the beginning of what he's saying.  I mean he is laying it on THICK!  Now, I don't need all that.  Remember, he's my drug.  It's not like I've been through rehab and have found a replacement drug!  I like all my boys!  I have even been liking my hubby but NO ONE makes me feel like he does in the bedroom!  So my friends it's looking like I shall embark on yet another journey with Don Wan.  My time is so very limited with this new job.  It has me going 100 miles an hour but I'm certain once I get a handle on it I would be able to see him quite often so this could work out well.  I also know that in order for this to work out for ME I need to not let him get to me.  I need to focus on the sex and just enjoy it and savor every minute of it but not let HIM in to much!  I have been keeping my end of the conversations pretty generic.  I give him what he wants and needs from the conversations but haven't been getting all mushy about him.  I also made sure he knew that I had been seeing someone else in this interim. Of course he asked if I would be willing to give him up.  I did not answer that email yet so we will see if he asks again.  I would be happy to have him as a lover for as long as I can imagine but I also know that our track record is not very strong so I don't get overly hopeful in regards to long term.   I must admit that my inner attention whore has certainly loved having him shower me with all of the wonderful compliments and praise!!  So needless to say I'm excited to be with him- SOON!  I can't wait for him to kiss me, to lick me, to suck him, to have him inside me.  It will be glorious!  Orgasm, after orgasm... maybe someday I will get smart and as soon as the fun is over I will not linger in bed with him to allow us time to "talk" and I will get up, get dressed and be the first to leave!  Well only time will tell but as an admitted addict I know I will be easily consumed by my drug and every time I do this my ability to get back on the wagon gets harder and harder!

So we shall see what happens.... at best I should have some pretty hot steamy posts to come!!!

I also have a date coming up with L.  I most certainly am not going to give that up yet!  

I do so love summer!  

Randoms

This past week I have been doing a lot of thinking about my life!  Here are a few things... in no particular order.....
I have not talked with C in several weeks now.  This is good but it also bums me out!  Secretly I wish he would get in touch with me and beg me to see him but I do not believe that will happen so I will continue to learn to live without him and his amazing skills.  He will always be one of the best lovers I've ever had (until I find someone better, lol) but he will never be able to give me or treat me the way I want!

We were away for the past few weekends out at the lake... with family... when we are at the lake I find that I put my phone away and forget about it.  This is such a nice break because any other time my phone is always on me or within ear shot of me... so when I picked my phone up Sunday to look at it I had two texts from L... The first one said "Did we break up? lol ;)"  Then about a half hour later he said... "I just haven't heard from you in several days and I hope your okay... let me know".  I thought this was very nice... he is very nice.  I have totally blown him off over the last week or so.  We were supposed to get together last week but I got busy and simply didn't make time.  It's funny cause he will treat me the way I want but he's not C so I don't put myself out there as much for him.  I do like him though but I've also been dealing with hubby a lot lately and giving him more of my focus and energy so that is a big part of it.  So I texted him back after we got home last night and apologized for being MIA and said we could chat tomorrow (today).  I'm actually texting him as I write this but nothing exciting.  I don't know that he and I will go much farther.

....... So the last two paragraphs I started over a week ago and a rare form of the plague entered my home- JK... well kinda!  We all came down with a horrible stomach virus and spent the entire week sick!  It was simply horrible!  I hate being sick, I do not like being home bound either.  Last week was also my last week at my old job so thank goodness I was working from home (since I wasn't getting much work done)!  The few meetings I did had were sitting on the toilet, lol!  Anyway, being sick is a good and bad on a marriage.  While I was sick hubby was very kind and sweet.  He helped take care of me and when our youngest came down sick that night, he stayed up with him all night long so that I could sleep.  I appreciate those things about him.  I of course continued to be sick for days after but managed to take care of myself, him, two kids/one sick, and the house.  I enjoy the help when I get it.  We also bickered plenty but mostly because we were tired and irritible.  Thank goodness I managed to get sick at the same time as my period so that helped that week go by so I can get back in the saddle.
I can only handle being home for so many days in a row so I managed to get out to dinner with some girlfriends on Thursday evening and then officially started my job Friday.  Let me tell you, it was a rough day... I had to go to a golf outing... the horror, lol.  Kidding... it was great.  I spent my first day at my new job looking all cute in golf apparel taking pictures of the golfers in the outing, talking, drinking and sitting under an umbrella (cause it was 100 out).  Yesterday was my first Official day.  So I'm on to my next career adventure.  No more overnight travel but still selling- of course.  I'm excited!

I did see L this past weekend to, and I do like him!  He had texted me that his band was playing this weekend.  So one day during the week I had texted him- "what is the name of the place your playing and where"?  His reply was priceless- "I'm playing in your strawberry field and it's in your panties".  He loves my little red mound!
So I did manage to get out to see him.  It was great!  He thought I was coming out Friday night but my girlfriend lamed out on me at the last minute so I was able to convince her to go out Saturday.  My brothers band was playing so we decided to go and see him first- warm up a bit.  So we got to the 1st bar and it ended up he was'nt playing but another band was, he was there of course so we hung out a bit, started drinking, and ended up having a great time there.  By the time we left there it was midnight and as we were driving to the other bar I started to chicken out.  I had never seen him in a public type setting and his bandmates were around and all.  So we got there and it was a bit of a hole in the wall and not very busy so we sat in the parking lot, and contimplated whether or not to go in for about 20 minutes.  She wanted to leave and really so did I but I just knew if we went in we would have a great time! SO WE DID!
As we were walking in I noticed that his band mates were outside (I had seen pics).  As soon as we walked in the door he was standing there in front of the bar.  Talk about deer in headlights.  He was floored when he saw me!  He couldn't believe it!  He was instantly nervous!  It was awkward and the whole wopping 10 people in the place were all eyes on us!  Talk about ackward moment!  So he hugged me, and then grabbed my hair, dipped me down and planted a big ole kiss on me- DAMN HOT! Then he hugged my friend and bought us a beer and shot!  I think once the shock wore off he was giddy that I had come.  Also still nervous, lol!   So he had to go back up on stage for their last set so we just got our drinks and found a place to sit.  It was immediately obvious that the woman in the place were scowling at us and the men were prowling us!  Slowly the men started finding their way in and around our table.  What a blast!  The band was pretty good- a little heavy for me but good!  The men were not all that great but as a first class attention whore it was a very successful evening.  We drank for free all night and my girlfriend got hit on by both men and woman.  She's a smoker so she kept leaving me to go outside with all of our new friends.  When she would leave me some guy would find his way over and strike up a conversation.  So as a friendly girl I would chat them up, always keeping a flirtatious eye on L.  So at one point, L gets his tamborine out and asks a girl from the audience to come up and play it.  He asks her waht her name is and she says P (my name)- to which he laughs and replays "really I'm in love with a girl named P" and winks at me.  So then a bit later another guy comes over and talks to me and now he's getting a little jealous and says "hey guys, do I need to stop singing early and walk off this stage so you'll all stop talking to my girl".  Or something like that, he said it nice and fun so it was taken more jokingly.  One guy said "hey buddy your lose is our gain".  Again, I was loving it.  So they did quit a little early and while his band mates were packing up he came over and gave me the attention I needed!  I was worried about his band mates not thinking it was cool that I showed up (since hes still married and all- oh yea and me too) but he didnt seem to care as he came over, sat facing me, pulled me onto his lap and started making out with me.  The guys behind us were like- that's hot, wanna share, to which he replied- in your dreams, lol!
We moved our little party outside where he found a dark little corner pushed me into the the corner and just devoured me with his kisses.  Have I mentioned that he is a big guy.  Like used to be a semi professional wrestler big guy.  He is the only big guy I've ever been with and there is something so sexy about the way he towers over and controls my movements.  I could feel his hard swollen cock up against me and I wanted it so bad.  It didn't take him long before his fingers found their way up my skirt and into my very wet pussy.  I wanted him so bad!  I told him he should just pull his cock out and fuck me right there.  He didn't think that was a good idea.  I thought it was a great idea!  I said lets go in your car- but a few of his band mates were riding with him and they were pretty much done and waiting for us at this point.  I was so wet and horny and he wouldn't stop rubbing my clit and sliding his fingers in and out of my pussy so I said if you don't fuck me now I'm going to cum all over your hand which of course just made him work harder and within a minute he had me cumming in his hand!  He took his hand out and started to lick his fingers clean but of course saved just one for me to suck clean!  I offered to return the favor but he said no- he would wait until he saw me next time and could fuck me good and proper!
I was disappointed but that was his decision. So he walked me to my car where my friend was waiting, kissed me goodbye & we went our separate ways. All was good. We laughed and giggled the whole way home & of course since I didn't get all I wanted I woke hubby up with my mouth on his cock & got my seconds for the evening. I know I'm such a whore!!

Funny last thing. On the way home that night my GF asked why I liked L.
She's knows he's not my typical type. She liked him to but she was curious. So I told her several things I liked about him including that thus far we've been very low maintenance together & I like that. Interesting enough she said yeah until now. I asked her why & she said cause you went to see him tonight & now he's going to like you even more & want you more. I thought naw... It will be fine.
Well she may have been right? More to come on L soon!