So things have been somewhat interesting lately?! Surprisingly I mean at home... good interesting... well bad first but that leads to good.
But first lets talk about my men.. then we can talk about the hubby and marriage!
C (Don Wan):
I think we are pretty well broke up. Disclaimer: this does not mean I will not have a weak moment and lust for him enough that I may eventually break down and be with him again- possibly before the end of the week, lol. Nonetheless we are not talking right now. I was down by him for work a few weeks ago and he was going to take the night off work and come stay with me but as always that didn't work out. He did however drive down to spend a few hours with me. As always, he comes in the door wraps his arms and hotness (he is so gorgeous) around me and kisses me. Have I mentioned his kisses. As he kisses he slowly consumes all of you. It's like with each moment of his kiss he draws you into him more and more. I could literally kiss him all day and never tire and with his kisses I could remain wet for days!! Anyway... before long I am utterly his and in the moments of being intimate with him the entire world stops and nothing else exists except us entwined in one another. Time stands still, and I am able to block everything out and give myself to him completely and him to me. He spoils me over and over and every time I try to flip him over so that I can simply taste his cock, or lick his ass he pushes me back down and says he's not finished with me yet. This man can make me cum over and over with his mouth. No man has ever spent this kind of time between my legs. I mean I know I taste good and all but geez! ;)
Finally, I get my turn and I love to take my time and enjoy him. He is so very appreciative of all that I do to him and although I would love it either way his enthusiasm makes me enjoy it that much more. I kiss him, I suck him, I lick every last inch of him. He allows me lips, tongue and fingers in all the places I desire. When I finally allowed him to cum, he had my head pinned so hard between his legs I couldn't move but I loved that I could feel him shoot all the way in the back of my throat... and mmm he tastes so good! I don't waste a drop and I lick him clean and ask kindly for him to release me from the death grip.
After sex is when the story goes downhill. He talks.. constantly! He tells me everything... everything going on with his girlfriend, his kids, their trips, his job.... EVERYTHING... EVERY DETAIL! He never shuts up.... and he NEVER ASKS QUESTIONS IN RETURN. I mean I'm a good listener and all but come on I equally love to talk and what woman doesn't appreciate a man that asks questions or cares to listen as much as they talk. So we talk, we fuck more, he talks a lot more and then he leaves.
So the other part about him is that he likes to say one thing and then do another. Such as tell me about how great I am (in and out of bed), how much he cares about me, blah, blah then he leaves and then I do not hear from him for several days. This annoys me greatly! So I send him a message basically saying that I don't think that's very nice and don't really appreciate it to which his reply is something like- I'm sorry- I've been in a coma for a few days now! Then a few days later he says that he found out his GF will be moving back to state at the end of the summer and he will be moving closer to me (they will be living together). I ask what that means for "us"? Will be able to still see each other, etc.? He says unlikely but he's not sure but he would like to continue to see me in the meantime! I bet! So at that point I say, you know since we've just started seeing each other again and it's only been a few times I think I will pass. I'd rather just go our own ways now rather than get all attached and addicted to you again and then have to get over you again! So as always, he doesn't reply. He is not good with communication. I'm pretty convinced that all men suck at communication and when things are said they don't agree with or like they think saying nothing is the best way to go! I disagree and this infuriates me! If ever I meet a man that communicates, and is good in bed I will have died and gone to heaven! So there have been a few other very short communications but I am proud to say that so far I've remained uninterested! FOR NOW!
J:
So J is an idiot and our kids play on the same baseball league. Not same division or teams but we occasionally see each other at the fields. Exchange glances, smiles, giggles, etc but that is all! On the last week of games for the season I'm sitting on the bleachers when suddenly I look over and there he is standing behind me smiling his most shit eating grin! He asks a few questions about the game, and of course my hubby is the one who answers them. I'm dying but want badly to talk to him so I wait a few and then excuse myself to the bathrooms. As I'm walking I walk by him. I didn't realize until I was almost to the bathroom and I glance behind me, JUMP, cause he is right there and says, sorry I scared you I was just admiring the view. So when I come out of the bathroom he's still standing there and since we are far enough away from the field we walk back towards that area talking a little. Mainly me saying wow, aren't you brave and ballsy! So we go our separate ways and I think nothing of this because my hubby NEVER pays attention to me.. well that is until this day! When I come back he walks over and says "who the fuck was that guy and what was that all about". I play dumb, and he wants to know why he came over by us, then followed his wife to the bathroom and then he sees us walking together. I cover by saying he's just some baseball dad, he scared me walking to the bathroom and when I came out he was apologizing for scaring me and that I will talk to anybody so he was explaining himself to me probably so I didn't think he was some weirdo, lol. Anyway, that appeased him enough and he pretty much left it alone. Phew! So I text J the next day to tell him he just ruined any chance of me ever getting him in on a 3some at my house! However, of course this lead to us flirting and sexting and him daring me to meet him for lunch. I never turn down a dare. So the following Monday he says meet me at our underground parking garage, wearing only 1 piece of clothing and bring my dildo. So on Monday I put on my new cute navy blue tank dress with nothing else on, I throw my dildo in a bag and head to the garage. I got there first but he pulled in behind me. He got out and came over, stuck his head in my car and kissed me hard! The dress allowed easy access to my breast so he pulled them out and began caressing and pinching my nipples, then he ran his hand up my thigh and quickly realized how warm and wet I was. He was basically checking to make sure I followed directions and didn't have anything else on. He said good job.. did you bring your toy He opened my door and continued to kiss me very hard and walked me to the hood of my car. He then bent me over the hood and pulled up my dress to expose my ass. Did I mention this is an active garage with people coming and going- granted we are in a corner but still exposed. So he lifts my dress, bends down and begins to lick my pussy making sure I'm plenty wet and then he sticks the dildo in my mouth so I can get it nice and wet before he fills me with it! Once he shoves it deep inside me and he's holding me down on the hood he begins to spank my ass... one cheek, then the other, then back over and over while he's moving the dildo in and out of me! After a few minutes he opens the back door to his car, grabs me and leads me over and into the back seat where he then licks and sucks my clit while he continues to fuck me with the dildo until I explode in orgasm. I love holding him there while I cum all over his face! He then stands up in the door of the car as I get on my knees in the backseat and he frees his hard, throbbing cock and fucks my face. He's cute and oh so visual. He likes me to look at him while I"m sucking him. He likes to take his cock push it out my cheeks and see it, and then slap my face with it and then shove it back in my mouth, hold my head and literally fuck my mouth. It doesn't bother me a bit either as he is always quick to cum, oh so appreciative, and taste delicious! So after, we clean up, hop in the backseat, chat for a few minutes (he is kind and listens as much as he talks) and then we go out separate ways. He also almost always sends me a cute message later in the day about how much he enjoys our times together!
L:
I have not seen L at all lately but we have been talking regularly. He and his wife have put their divorce on hold. She has asked him to not move out yet. He says they are not getting back together but as long as they are getting along he will gladly stay there for his kids, and do his own thing on the side. Anyhoo!!! He would like for us to see each other a lot but I just have not been able to make it work out with him. He texts me the sweetest things, he seems to also think very highly of me which is nice! He likes to talk on the phone a few times a week. He tells me all the time how he can't stop thinking about me. He has been trying to get me to go out on his boat with him for a day which I would love to do!! I could have a long term affair with this guy I know it. He's done it before, our situations are similar. He's nice and I've only been with him 2x but it was good. Not great but good. The first time was in a hotel but it was the first time and of course there's a little nerves the first time, the second was in a car and he's a big guy so that's not fair! He's totally not my normal type. He body builder big. Super tall, tons of tattoos, sings in a band- rocker guy but he's adorable! Anyway, we shall see. I was supposed to see him today but that didn't work. I may see him this week so that story may be getting good!
Hubby:
The constant roller coaster continues... however, we had a bad fight last week when I found some shit on his phone... it was a bad fight. We both agreed it was over and I told him I wanted him out. I was a mess but I truly believed it was over this time. He said he would start looking for a place to live immediately. Then he comes home that night with a pool. WHAT? After a bad fight, I left crying and went down to my GF's house in the neighborhood and we started drinking! So lots of crying, yelling, bitching and drinking. Then hubby starts texting me and since I'm drinking I'm more bitchy and sarcastic and less pathetic. So back and forth the next thing I know he's flirting with me and taking dirty- WE ARE SO FUCKED UP! So back and forth all night and then it stops. Finally at about 1am, I go home-drunk. He basically takes me by the hair, kisses me, practically rips off my clothes and fucks me silly! Like in ways he's never fucked me before! So the next day we decide to go out to dinner so we can talk. We not only talked that night but have continued to talk every day since. Really talking and having a ton of super HOT, CRAZY, DIRTY, LOVELY, FANTASTIC SEX! So I guess I will just go with it. I can't help but feel like I married this man for better or worse. The last few years have been the worse part but there's been plenty of better too. Seriously, with me working and him busy, our kids doing well, our lives are in a place to just keep getting better so why quite now. I will continue to ride the coaster in hope that a few good days will turn into a few good weeks, and then a few good months. I know it will always have it's ups and downs but I can live with so much of his shit if he can just be good to me! Plus I like when he's dominant with me- I think he's finally starting to get it!
The funny thing is that I may always cheat but I have to tell ya, after the sex we had this past weekend I don't have a ton of desire for anyone but him and truth of the matter is he has the best cock out of any guy I've ever been with!!! He told me yesterday morning that all he has been thinking about is the sex we've had the past few nights! So I'm just gonna roll with it for now!
But first lets talk about my men.. then we can talk about the hubby and marriage!
C (Don Wan):
I think we are pretty well broke up. Disclaimer: this does not mean I will not have a weak moment and lust for him enough that I may eventually break down and be with him again- possibly before the end of the week, lol. Nonetheless we are not talking right now. I was down by him for work a few weeks ago and he was going to take the night off work and come stay with me but as always that didn't work out. He did however drive down to spend a few hours with me. As always, he comes in the door wraps his arms and hotness (he is so gorgeous) around me and kisses me. Have I mentioned his kisses. As he kisses he slowly consumes all of you. It's like with each moment of his kiss he draws you into him more and more. I could literally kiss him all day and never tire and with his kisses I could remain wet for days!! Anyway... before long I am utterly his and in the moments of being intimate with him the entire world stops and nothing else exists except us entwined in one another. Time stands still, and I am able to block everything out and give myself to him completely and him to me. He spoils me over and over and every time I try to flip him over so that I can simply taste his cock, or lick his ass he pushes me back down and says he's not finished with me yet. This man can make me cum over and over with his mouth. No man has ever spent this kind of time between my legs. I mean I know I taste good and all but geez! ;)
Finally, I get my turn and I love to take my time and enjoy him. He is so very appreciative of all that I do to him and although I would love it either way his enthusiasm makes me enjoy it that much more. I kiss him, I suck him, I lick every last inch of him. He allows me lips, tongue and fingers in all the places I desire. When I finally allowed him to cum, he had my head pinned so hard between his legs I couldn't move but I loved that I could feel him shoot all the way in the back of my throat... and mmm he tastes so good! I don't waste a drop and I lick him clean and ask kindly for him to release me from the death grip.
After sex is when the story goes downhill. He talks.. constantly! He tells me everything... everything going on with his girlfriend, his kids, their trips, his job.... EVERYTHING... EVERY DETAIL! He never shuts up.... and he NEVER ASKS QUESTIONS IN RETURN. I mean I'm a good listener and all but come on I equally love to talk and what woman doesn't appreciate a man that asks questions or cares to listen as much as they talk. So we talk, we fuck more, he talks a lot more and then he leaves.
So the other part about him is that he likes to say one thing and then do another. Such as tell me about how great I am (in and out of bed), how much he cares about me, blah, blah then he leaves and then I do not hear from him for several days. This annoys me greatly! So I send him a message basically saying that I don't think that's very nice and don't really appreciate it to which his reply is something like- I'm sorry- I've been in a coma for a few days now! Then a few days later he says that he found out his GF will be moving back to state at the end of the summer and he will be moving closer to me (they will be living together). I ask what that means for "us"? Will be able to still see each other, etc.? He says unlikely but he's not sure but he would like to continue to see me in the meantime! I bet! So at that point I say, you know since we've just started seeing each other again and it's only been a few times I think I will pass. I'd rather just go our own ways now rather than get all attached and addicted to you again and then have to get over you again! So as always, he doesn't reply. He is not good with communication. I'm pretty convinced that all men suck at communication and when things are said they don't agree with or like they think saying nothing is the best way to go! I disagree and this infuriates me! If ever I meet a man that communicates, and is good in bed I will have died and gone to heaven! So there have been a few other very short communications but I am proud to say that so far I've remained uninterested! FOR NOW!
J:
So J is an idiot and our kids play on the same baseball league. Not same division or teams but we occasionally see each other at the fields. Exchange glances, smiles, giggles, etc but that is all! On the last week of games for the season I'm sitting on the bleachers when suddenly I look over and there he is standing behind me smiling his most shit eating grin! He asks a few questions about the game, and of course my hubby is the one who answers them. I'm dying but want badly to talk to him so I wait a few and then excuse myself to the bathrooms. As I'm walking I walk by him. I didn't realize until I was almost to the bathroom and I glance behind me, JUMP, cause he is right there and says, sorry I scared you I was just admiring the view. So when I come out of the bathroom he's still standing there and since we are far enough away from the field we walk back towards that area talking a little. Mainly me saying wow, aren't you brave and ballsy! So we go our separate ways and I think nothing of this because my hubby NEVER pays attention to me.. well that is until this day! When I come back he walks over and says "who the fuck was that guy and what was that all about". I play dumb, and he wants to know why he came over by us, then followed his wife to the bathroom and then he sees us walking together. I cover by saying he's just some baseball dad, he scared me walking to the bathroom and when I came out he was apologizing for scaring me and that I will talk to anybody so he was explaining himself to me probably so I didn't think he was some weirdo, lol. Anyway, that appeased him enough and he pretty much left it alone. Phew! So I text J the next day to tell him he just ruined any chance of me ever getting him in on a 3some at my house! However, of course this lead to us flirting and sexting and him daring me to meet him for lunch. I never turn down a dare. So the following Monday he says meet me at our underground parking garage, wearing only 1 piece of clothing and bring my dildo. So on Monday I put on my new cute navy blue tank dress with nothing else on, I throw my dildo in a bag and head to the garage. I got there first but he pulled in behind me. He got out and came over, stuck his head in my car and kissed me hard! The dress allowed easy access to my breast so he pulled them out and began caressing and pinching my nipples, then he ran his hand up my thigh and quickly realized how warm and wet I was. He was basically checking to make sure I followed directions and didn't have anything else on. He said good job.. did you bring your toy He opened my door and continued to kiss me very hard and walked me to the hood of my car. He then bent me over the hood and pulled up my dress to expose my ass. Did I mention this is an active garage with people coming and going- granted we are in a corner but still exposed. So he lifts my dress, bends down and begins to lick my pussy making sure I'm plenty wet and then he sticks the dildo in my mouth so I can get it nice and wet before he fills me with it! Once he shoves it deep inside me and he's holding me down on the hood he begins to spank my ass... one cheek, then the other, then back over and over while he's moving the dildo in and out of me! After a few minutes he opens the back door to his car, grabs me and leads me over and into the back seat where he then licks and sucks my clit while he continues to fuck me with the dildo until I explode in orgasm. I love holding him there while I cum all over his face! He then stands up in the door of the car as I get on my knees in the backseat and he frees his hard, throbbing cock and fucks my face. He's cute and oh so visual. He likes me to look at him while I"m sucking him. He likes to take his cock push it out my cheeks and see it, and then slap my face with it and then shove it back in my mouth, hold my head and literally fuck my mouth. It doesn't bother me a bit either as he is always quick to cum, oh so appreciative, and taste delicious! So after, we clean up, hop in the backseat, chat for a few minutes (he is kind and listens as much as he talks) and then we go out separate ways. He also almost always sends me a cute message later in the day about how much he enjoys our times together!
L:
I have not seen L at all lately but we have been talking regularly. He and his wife have put their divorce on hold. She has asked him to not move out yet. He says they are not getting back together but as long as they are getting along he will gladly stay there for his kids, and do his own thing on the side. Anyhoo!!! He would like for us to see each other a lot but I just have not been able to make it work out with him. He texts me the sweetest things, he seems to also think very highly of me which is nice! He likes to talk on the phone a few times a week. He tells me all the time how he can't stop thinking about me. He has been trying to get me to go out on his boat with him for a day which I would love to do!! I could have a long term affair with this guy I know it. He's done it before, our situations are similar. He's nice and I've only been with him 2x but it was good. Not great but good. The first time was in a hotel but it was the first time and of course there's a little nerves the first time, the second was in a car and he's a big guy so that's not fair! He's totally not my normal type. He body builder big. Super tall, tons of tattoos, sings in a band- rocker guy but he's adorable! Anyway, we shall see. I was supposed to see him today but that didn't work. I may see him this week so that story may be getting good!
Hubby:
The constant roller coaster continues... however, we had a bad fight last week when I found some shit on his phone... it was a bad fight. We both agreed it was over and I told him I wanted him out. I was a mess but I truly believed it was over this time. He said he would start looking for a place to live immediately. Then he comes home that night with a pool. WHAT? After a bad fight, I left crying and went down to my GF's house in the neighborhood and we started drinking! So lots of crying, yelling, bitching and drinking. Then hubby starts texting me and since I'm drinking I'm more bitchy and sarcastic and less pathetic. So back and forth the next thing I know he's flirting with me and taking dirty- WE ARE SO FUCKED UP! So back and forth all night and then it stops. Finally at about 1am, I go home-drunk. He basically takes me by the hair, kisses me, practically rips off my clothes and fucks me silly! Like in ways he's never fucked me before! So the next day we decide to go out to dinner so we can talk. We not only talked that night but have continued to talk every day since. Really talking and having a ton of super HOT, CRAZY, DIRTY, LOVELY, FANTASTIC SEX! So I guess I will just go with it. I can't help but feel like I married this man for better or worse. The last few years have been the worse part but there's been plenty of better too. Seriously, with me working and him busy, our kids doing well, our lives are in a place to just keep getting better so why quite now. I will continue to ride the coaster in hope that a few good days will turn into a few good weeks, and then a few good months. I know it will always have it's ups and downs but I can live with so much of his shit if he can just be good to me! Plus I like when he's dominant with me- I think he's finally starting to get it!
The funny thing is that I may always cheat but I have to tell ya, after the sex we had this past weekend I don't have a ton of desire for anyone but him and truth of the matter is he has the best cock out of any guy I've ever been with!!! He told me yesterday morning that all he has been thinking about is the sex we've had the past few nights! So I'm just gonna roll with it for now!
