So much to say!

Eventually I will talk about everything... my secrets, why I took a long sabbatical, etc.  One thing at a time.  Lets start with some basic information and then we can always go from there.  I'm a 35 year old woman.  I have two children 7 & 4.  I have been married for over 10 years, of those ten years I cheated on/off for 5.  My husband is fourteen years older than I am.  Sometimes I feel like a drug addict and I know that is a silly statement to make as I don't think I'm a nympho or anything like that but I do feel as though I have a problem, well many, but that's a whole different story.  I am a mom first and foremost, work PT out of the home, and own a business with my husband that I do some work for but am about to start working much more for as both kids will be in school this year.  I come from a divorced family, but great parents.  No home is perfect but I was raised well, and had a pretty good life.  When I met my husband I was 20 on our first date and 21 on our second.  He was this MAN and I was very intrigued by him.  He had never been married and had no children.  All of my friends were off partying at college or home, and living crazy lives and I was falling in love and getting ready to settle down early!  I had a great job, was making really good money at a young age.  I was living the life of someone about ten years older that I was.  I feel in love with him quickly and visa versa.  We had a long engagement but I was married before I was 24.  So again while my friends were living their lives I was learning how to be a good wife.  We didn't have kids right away cause we wanted to just enjoy each other.  We bought a house, got a dog, all the good stuff.  We did a lot together, had fun, lived out lives, etc.  I would say it's safe to say I was happy!  I never cheated, or dreamed of it until my first child was about 18 months.  I was looking to cheat, it just kinda happened.  You know the old fashion way.  No posts on websites... just met a man who made me feel like I was hot, sexy, and he wanted me.  He was gorgeous!  Totally beautiful.  I could never have dreamed that a man that hot would want a girl like me, but he did.  So that was that I screwed his brains out for an entire weekend and then we decided to see each other on the side.  We didn't live close so that helped.  This lasted for a few months until one day he said something about me making his stomach feel funny, or something like that.  That was pretty much the end of that!

Then there was "J" and he was my fun, in the car,  have sex several times a week on our lunch break.  I kind of took him for granted!  He have the best oral I've ever had.  He made me feel good... just plain good.  He was always there for me.  I could say more about him and maybe I will over time but mainly he was very cool, a friend and a lover.  The only lover I ever have or would have to my house (2x).  Anyway, we don't even really keep in touch anymore but that is because I told him not to and I'm sure if I contacted him today he'd invite me to his backseat tomorrow... but unfortunately that won't be happening.

That brings me to "R" or formerly known as "the traveler".  He rocked my world and then almost brought it all crashing down on me.  I wrote some really great posts about him and I, our experiences together... I'm so bummed I deleted it all.  I wish I could have saved even an achieve folder of it so I could go back and read it.  I miss him... sometimes!  I will continue to divulge information as I write about why I stopped writing, what has happened over the last year along with whatever else may be on my mind at the time.  I just have to say I'm slowly finding all my favorite blogs to read from before and catching up on what has happened in every one's lives and it makes me almost "giddy" to read and write again.  Kind of therapeutic and since the hubby and I can't find our, way to therapy I will use this as my therapy in the meantime.  I also may have a new friend... we will call him "M" but it's a little to new to write much except he is sweet!  I know boring but who knows.

*Sigh*

I'm back, well kind of!

Woman.. why are your husbands cheating on you?
Men... why are your wives having sex with other men (a.k.a. cheating on you)?

Why do we cheat?  Is it inherent?  Is monogamy really even a word?  According to some people I know it is but I really don't think it is our nature!

Women... if your husbands are cheating on you it's likely for the plain and simple reason that you are not giving them that pussy!  For men, it's pretty simple... they want a little kink here and there, a little spice but if there wife is giving them pussy, as frequent as they think they need it... they may still watch a little porn, and fantasize a little, but chances are their cocks will stay at home with you.  Now, I do know that there are some men out there that just like a little strange, now and again, and just don't have it in them to turn it down! However, the majority will not stray if they are getting it at home.  I have had lovers even tell me that they would probably stay at home if there wives would give it up even once a month!  Once a month, what the fuck is wrong with a woman that isn't wanting to fuck once a month?

Men... if you wives are cheating on you it's just not so plain and simple... you have much more work to do than to give up the cock!  As woman, especially those of us who are taking care of kids, houses, running around, working, etc. we want to feel appreciated, loved, adored (okay did I take that last one to far).  We know you work hard, and provide, and play with your kids but what about asking if there's anything you can do to help us out so we can have a moment to ourselves (to relax, take a bath, work out, go out with girlfriends, whatever).  We know we deserve this, we just want you to know that we deserve this.  What about telling us how great we look, how beautiful and/or sexy you think we are... even on occasion... cause buddy let me tell you... if your not telling us this... guess what, our lovers are.. a lot!  What about sexing us up a little bit!  Foreplay, talking to us, making the sex all about us for a change.  What about taking us out on a nice date, that you planned all by yourself!  In my opinion for us girls sometimes it's the simple things that make us feel amazing, and often times when we start to feel amazing, we start to do and act amazing, and we will surprise you when we come out of our shells and possibly rock your world!  You see, when we woman find a lover, he is most likely going to do all the things for us that are husbands aren't.  But I don't mean swallow cum, or give blow jobs (well you know what I man reversed)...I mean he's going to make us feel as amazing as we already know we are deep down inside, he's going to say all the right things, touch us in all the right places, take his time... ADORE US!  and you know what, you could get all the things that he is getting out of us if only you were the one doing those things.
Now again, I know in some situations, there are woman who just simply hate their husbands and wouldn't want to touch them even if they did these things but again I'm betting on the majority of us who still very much love our husbands but are just not getting what we want out of them for one reason or another.
Now back to these wives that won't have sex with their husbands.... I don't get it.  I know the whole Men are from Mars, Woman are from Venus, but swear to god I'm from Uranus or something.
I have girlfriends that say they just don't really care about having sex anymore, or they are always too tired, or don't feel sexy enough, but I'm quite certain that if their husbands did a few of the things on my list they would come around because I know these girls and they are sexy bitches they just haven't felt like it in a long time.  I know that the few of them that have heard a few of my stories sit there drooling and living vicariously through me.  Why?  Because they either don't have the guts to do what I've done, or don't feel deserving.  What do I know, I never thought I would either, but maybe it's a personality type or something like that.  I love my husband very much and sometimes when we have sex it's good and I love it and I question myself, but then when I have sex with a lover, I remember why!   When I hear a man say he'd not cheat if he could have it once a month, I say fuck that, if I could have it 1-2x per week then maybe I wouldn't cheat.... I don't want to settle for once a month... I want sex... I like it... it feels good, it makes me feel good about myself, about life, about everything.  It aligns my world.  Why can't we all just have more sex, we would all be much happier people!
That's enough for now, I gotta run... more to come!